After weeks of making decisions we never imagined we'd have to make, we submitted our embryo adoption profile—and suddenly there was nothing left to decide. This is the story of the strange space between finishing our home study and finding our match, and all the if/thens my brain managed to create while we waited.

Sometimes the things we expect to simply check off a list end up teaching us far more than we expected. What began as required education for our embryo adoption home study became a lesson in identity, belonging, and holding complicated truths—and eventually led me to create the very thing I couldn't find.