Sometimes the hardest part of following God isn't deciding to say yes. It's continuing to trust Him after the decision has been made. This season taught me that obedience doesn't come with certainty, only enough light for the next step—and that learning to let go of the life I imagined is a process I have to choose again and again.

Some decisions become clearer the longer you think about them. This wasn't one of those. The more we learned about embryo adoption, the more questions we uncovered—until we finally stopped asking how and started asking why.

There is a difference between believing something is true and needing it to be true. Our son's diagnosis forced us into that space. It became the beginning of a deeper kind of grief, a deeper kind of faith, and the long process of learning to hold both hope and heartbreak in the same hands.